I started drinking in my early teens. When exactly I become an alcoholic… I don’t know. Actually, it doesn’t really matter; I know I am an alcoholic. Today, being an alcoholic is the best thing that ever happened to me. I know it sounds crazy.
The reasoning is, had I not been an alcoholic, I would have never been forced to search inside my soul and find a spiritual way of living that is better than anything I ever experienced while drinking. Today I have found the joy in life I looked for in the bottle and partying for so many years. Sure there was a lot of pain, but I had to do a million things perfectly wrong to get to where I’m at today.
At some point, I realized that drinking was slowly killing me; not only physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. Drinking would numb the emotions I had and ultimately lead me into severe depressive states. In recovery, what I’ve learned about alcohol depression is that drinking was only a symptom of my disease. Since I started drinking at such an early age, I never really learned how to deal with my emotions or how to accept life on life’s terms.
For me, living a life of sobriety means being free of all mind altering drugs. In order to maintain long-term sobriety, I have to be diligent in working a recovery program. A program that helps me become a better human being and living a life based on spiritual principles. Through this wonderful life of sobriety, I’ve learned self-acceptance, love, and how to accept life on life’s terms. The result is an amazing life and something which I had been searching for so many years in the bottle. For so many years, all I really wanted was a peace of mind and a life which I could be proud of. A life full of friends and loved ones which makes each day true miracle and gift to accept and enjoy.